
books/zines
making sense + we speak in metaphors
This photo zine /collection of random photos she has taken in recent years was her unintentional attempt at documenting the city’s absurdity—be it appalling, (accidentally) aesthetic, tragic, humorous.
Photo & poetry box set (85 photo cards + 1 poem), 2023
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If someone cares to ask or wonder — “how can I make sense of this ‘zine’, or rather, piles of random photos?” Then you are already right on track, are you?
There is no right way to interpret or use this. Each photo can contain visual elements/signifiers/feelings that (I/you think) relate to another photo or another series of photos, which can also relate to another series of photos etc.; the process could go on and on and the images could be rearranged in indefinite ways while still forming a narrative that still arguably “makes sense”.
If I were to map out all these relations that my brain could make sense of, which are of course based on my subjective understanding and experience of reality, I will end up with a “garden of forking paths”; hence it is impossible to impose a single linear arrangement of these photos.While some may argue that the artist has the choice to just pick one narrative path and let the audience see what the artist wants them to see, I would rather not take the liberty from them, while imposing on them my frivolous and ungrounded claims and understanding of reality.
Before I lose everyone’s attention (probably already did) due to my lofty stream-of-consciousness writing, I shall quote from an essay that I have written but failed to submit in college:
As argued by Roger Fry in “An Essay in Aesthetics”, we are constantly experiencing material reality in real time, there is a constant "need for responsive action [that] hurries us along and prevents us from ever realising fully what the emotion is that we feel". Lacking real-time interpretation and mental organization of the experience, a fragmented reality results.
Perhaps this collection of photos (or any photographs that we all take) aims to remind us of our incomplete and incoherent material reality that we are unable to make sense of in real time; and only through the retrospective and introspective process of (re)mapping and (re)interpreting the past from a distance, we can then somehow make sense of our reality.
So, in the end, you may still ask “WHAT ARE YOU SAYING AND WHAT TO DO WITH THIS”? You are free to explore the endless possibilities of arrangements based on what resonates deeply with you: the stimulus, imagination, ideas, experience, your understanding of and feelings for our city, leading to your interpretation of the likeness and relations among the images and the underlying allusions (if existent), and ultimately, how we can make sense of this city.
Amidst the world’s ruthless chaos and before our minds are caged or put to sleep, let’s fully embrace and exercise our imagination.
Ending with two final quotes:
“[Our] world of the imagination is essentially more real than the actual world, because it has a coherence and unity which the actual world lacks.”— Christopher Reed, from A Roger Fry Reader, “Post Impressionism”
“Imagination~🌈🌈🌈” — SpongeBob SquarePants
trying to remember, starting to forget
明天可能再也記不起
A zine about movies, feelings, memories—all that I am starting to forget
Published in 2023
trash 留我做個(垃圾)
A 16-page zine poster of curated street “trash”.
Open up the zine and flip to the other side for a poster, a photo taken on Nathan Road amidst the blue waters fired by water cannon trucks just one night ago, the words scribbled on the pedestrian crossing cry the lyrics to the song Speechless—what may seem insignificant… could still be strong, resilient, unconventionally beautiful, defiant.
「殘骸雖會腐化,庭園中最後也開滿花……」
黑夜過後,是清晨的街景。盡被踐踏的您,絕非勢弱言輕。反而一如既往,以剛柔的姿態,抗衡人類世界的崩壞。
Published in 2021
Collected by Asia Art Archive (AAA) and featured in AAA’s Nam2 Haa5 Zine: Tête-à-tête between Zines and Books in AAA Library
the unmappable process of becoming
A double-sided poetry zine.
Open up the zine and flip to the other side for another reading experience
Writings from 2013-present, chopped up, erased, conjoined, grouped under several (unintentionally recurring) “moods” that appeared in the author’s writing over the years. Do I mean what I mean, do you see what I mean, do you see what you mean to see… chop it all up, front and back, without context, breathe upon words that resonate with you the most… you don’t have to understand the poem, you don’t have to understand me, because I cannot either, hence unmappable (aren’t we all).
Published in 2021
Original version in html form.
urban wanderings 忙/茫/妄 (忘 遊)
“urban wanderings” is a compilation of past writings (in English and Chinese) and film photographs taken in Hong Kong. It is a printed product or “photo book”; but it is also a desperate (and delusional) attempt to remap and salvage one’s gradually dissipating identity, a lifelong quest for — for what? Perhaps an alternative to this vacant and ritualistic life, an elusive ideal that is forever unresolvable.
《忙/茫/妄(忘遊)》是一本菲林攝影和中英寫作集。它是一本印刷品、「攝影集」;但它本身也是一個充斥著無力感(和對理想生活的妄想)的載體。作者(攝影師)以圖文軿湊的過程重新梳理、反思、映射和極力挽救一個逐漸消散的身份和個人意識,從而設法釐清她終日對人生的真正追求。這追求是什麼?也許是對一種拒絕被同化的生存意識,一種會死而無憾的人生。但身為一個不知何時才能下班的打工仔,一個其實愛文學和創作但終日面對數字和商業策略圖表的夢想家,這是一種永遠難以捉摸和實現的理想。
Published in 2020 (8.5×11 in, 22×28 cm, 52 pages; ISBN / ISSN: 9781715569655)
Collected by Asia Art Archive (AAA) and featured in AAA’s Nam2 Haa5 Zine: Tête-à-tête between Zines and Books in AAA Library